I love my Mother so much. I hate the disease that’s ravished her mind and body, Alzheimer’s. Alzheimer’s has changed my Mom in such drastic ways that she’s not the person I’ve known all my life. The disease has slowly stolen from her precious memories, personality traits and the capacity to care for herself on a daily basis without the help of someone else.
Having a conversation with her or just watching a 30 minute TV Show is not very fulfilling. Most times she can’t remember what happened 5 minutes before, so she can’t keep up with the storyline because she simply can’t remember. I’ve become the enemy in so many ways in her mind because of the disease.
I have to restrict her, correct her, and challenge her to keep her safe. She doesn’t comprehend the things I do as helpful but as always bothering her. She gets upset easily and can become very mean quite quickly. I’m often under verbal attack for looking out for her best interest and protecting her. You see, in her mind she forgets sometimes but she feels she’s capable of taking care of herself. Unfortunately, she is not.
I’m the enemy and she does say mean things about me to others. I don’t have a problem with it because I know that what she’s saying isn’t true. She also says mean things about other people to me and I know that it’s not true. Most times it isn’t even reality. Completely made up but to her in her mind and world it’s factual, real and true. The disease has given her a reality that’s all her own.
God truly is my keeper, comforter and the only one I trust. Isaiah 26:3 KJV, Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Caregiver is a tough job that can only be executed properly with Love. John 15:17 KJV, These things I command you, that ye love one another.
Brenda Cares Corner Ministry
Ordained Christian Minister